Praying for him and...

I love him. I really do. And I long for him when he's working nights and I'm working days. I think of him constantly when we are apart. Well, maybe not constantly, I was distracted by that driver who cut me off in traffic - didn't they know I was late? And I was distracted by the coworker who asked me for help... again... I thought they should know what they were doing by now. But still, I think of him a lot when we are apart. I love him. I really, really do.

And it saddens me because I don't know the last time he read his Bible or the last time he prayed. It's been a while since we've been to church together. So I pray for him. Every day. I pray for him because I love him and want to see him drawn closer to Christ. I pray for him every day.

Today, I was praying: "Direct his steps by Your Word. And let no iniquity have dominion over him." I pray for him because I love him. I love him. I love him.

But it hit me as I prayed, I need to pray this too: "Direct my steps by Your Word. And let no iniquity have dominion over me." Can I say that I am surprised that as I pray for him (because I love him), I am drawn closer to Christ?

Longing

I woke up this morning feeling crowded, like the walls were pushing in. Too many things on my to do list and not enough time to do them. Wake up. Exercise. Read my Bible and pray. Make lunch. Have breakfast. Shower and get ready for the day. Get in the car. Drive to work. Get ready for a meeting I lead. Make that two meetings. No, wait, let me check my calendar, three meetings. So much to do, I can't breathe.

All the while, I wanted to be in bed snuggled up next to the man that I love. To feel his breath against my body. To inhale the scent of his manliness. To thank God for the blessing that he is. But he is working nights and I woke up alone. With an ache in my heart that won't be soothed until we are together again. With so much to do before we are together. God, how can I wait for him?

But God says, "My daughter. I am here. I know the longings of your heart. Be still..."

When Facing Trouble

I was reading through Psalm 50 this morning and stopped to meditate on verse 15. I wondered to myself what does trouble really mean?

So, using my Blue Letter Bible app and looked it up.

The Hebrew word here is צָרָה tsârâh and it's meaning really struck me. Emphasis below is mine.

From the outline of Biblical Usage:

1. straits, distress, trouble
2. vexer, rival wife

From Strong's: tightness (i.e. figuratively, trouble); transitively, a female rival:—adversary, adversity, affliction, anguish, distress, tribulation, trouble

A rival wife, a female rival, trouble.

Anything that is competing for the affections of a husband, or of a child, or even competing for my affections - anything that is not in line with what God wants for us and is competing for our affections - that is trouble.

So, I call out to God to keep me away from things that steal my affections away. Deliver me from trouble and I will glorify You!

Today I Am Glad

Today, I am glad. I have hope. As I was studying Psalm 48 this morning, I was encouraged. Today, I am glad.

You can be glad too!